she got it!! and HE has her…



i realize that so many times in life, we’re unaware of the many things that happen behind the scenes. we’re unaware of the reckless car that runs out of gas before it heads toward our minivan, full of kiddos. we’re unaware of the grand orchestration in the inner most parts of a corporation thus creating a job for our loved one.  we’re unaware of the angels protecting the crosswalks. and we’re definitely unaware of all the ways the lord truly goes before us, hems us in & comes behind. i believe sometimes He will pull back the curtain so we get a quick glimpse into some of His works. and i believe sometimes the threads that are woven underneath the tapestry of our lives won’t be seen until that day when we meet Him face to face and then see ….breathtaking moments where our heart can say….wow, it was You all along.

the scriptures say all good gifts are from Him. sometimes we think it’s because of something we did or something we accomplish….all on our own. i believe He allows us to be part of the stories He writes. He doesn’t need us, but He allows us to join in & see face to face what He’s up to. well. these past few days He pulled back the curtain for me & i got a quick glimpse into His heart, His heart for my girl & His heart for this mama that’ll stay behind having sent not one, but two out of the nest within days of each other.

friday evening madi texted dan & i telling us she’d been offered an internship with the Anthropologie’s buying team! this has been a dream of hers for years. she was on track to graduate from georgia state in december, having gone through in less than three years. to make a long story short, she changed up one of her classes this summer to allow her to be gone for a week thinking she’d just take that class in her fall (& final) semester. days before class began she realized a pre-req was required. to make a very long story short, she wouldn’t be able to graduate on time. as you can imagine this caused much disappointment. graduating early would allow her to apply for the winter internship with anthro & now that dream was going to be put on hold.

she spent days researching & applying to other schools in the hopes of finishing online probably spring of 2017.  mind you, this all occurred the first week of august. what’s such a big deal about the first of august you ask? well. we were moving savannah out of her apartment in the city to live here the last few days prior to her wedding….yes at this point we were less than three weeks from her wedding. any mother of the brides in the house? can i get an amen?  i’ll insert here, three weeks before your daughter gets married and you and said daughter along with madi are the wedding planners is nuts. nuts i tell you! the final push of emails, delegating, gown fittings, orders, phone calls, vendor lists, tracking down guests, travel details. and…we were trying to pack up savannah to move. across the country. the first week of august emi was also packing up as we were days from moving her into her sorority house. she was full on prepping for rush at axo. as if that’s not enough, caroline was in full season with volleyball. first week of august i was feverishly wrapping up a busier summer than ever with my own business. the list goes on. it was a lot. a whole lot.

madi found out there was actually a fall internship available & began the application process. she was immediately interviewed and began what turned into a six week interview process with what felt like everyone and their mama from anthropologie’s home office. she began to talk about the what if’s of moving. oh did i tell you? anthro’s HQ? it’s in philadelphia.

let me tell you a little about my madison. we’re very very close. she’s been my right hand in many ways. she’s a chatty introvert who loves her family fiercely. she went with me to many of my noonday trunk shows & often times wanted to come along & assist on my photoshoots. she loves to hang out with dan & i. she works like a machine. she’s maternal and enjoys spending time with her little sissy. we have much in common. and honestly i think she likes me. i think many of you wonder if your little one & you will be friends when they become teenagers and even into young adulthood. it’s a sweet thing when even through hard times, miscommunications & misunderstandings you see that they really do like you. and when they seemingly love to spend time with you, well it’s the icing on the cake. i had a client text me this week & say she was at anthropologie and saw a young woman who was clearly my twin. she had no idea it was my madi. when she saw my post about madison’s internship she flipped realizing it was indeed my girl.

well last friday madison’s dream of working with anthropologie was realized!! i am OVER THE MOON thrilled for her!! she’s worked like a beast for the shop in westside for four years. they hired her when she was in high school-she was dual enrolled at the time and we honestly think they thought she was in college full time. follow? she was the baby there and has grown up with them for over four years. you guys. i’ve never been there, but as you can imagine the home office is AMAZING. i mean AMAZING!! ( here’s a hint, look up URBN on insta & check out some pics) . here’s an article about the “epic campus” home office. i die. 

we were in athens with emi friday celebrating her sorority’s parent weekend when madison let us know her news. first thing saturday morning i posted on instagram the awesome news. i also halfheartedly included something along the lines of ….if anyone is renting an inlaw suite let me know. at the time of the post, she needed to report in less than two weeks.  yes essentially it was a roommate open call. i know no one in philly. the thought of her heading up in a matter days, to start a new job, while taking a full load of college courses online, knowing no one was what caused me some serious stress. during those weeks prior to the wedding, i totally compartmentalized and put away the thought of sending her away. cheering her on, wanting her to land this job, YES!! moving, leaving the nest, a whole lotta new simultaneously, no.

within less than two hours someone reached out and offered to host her for the entire 10 weeks of internship. she sent a plethora of emails about their finished basement, she was cooking homemade chicken noodle soup for two of her four (adorable children). details on the commute madi would have. i kid you not. by middle of the day i had another family offer to host her, again for the entire internship. pictures were sent of their family & their golden doodle. we had multiple mutual friends. she would be a 7 minute walk to the train. two families you guys. two busy families who i’ve never met offering to love on & host my girl ( both included  “she’s welcome to have thanksgiving with us…one even “your entire family is welcome to join us for thanksgiving”) until middle of december. by the next day a third family reached out with the same offer.

i can’t even.

i made a little note on my agenda that the moment the email arrived ( the moment less than 2 hours from my post) the song playing on my computer was chris tomlin’s “how great is our god”. i’ve received so many emails with notes saying things such as “we don’t have a room but would love to have madi over for dinner”, “we’d love for her to come to church with us. we attend one of tim keller’s church plants”, “i don’t have an extra room, i wish i did, but i’m just a phone call away & we’d love to have madison over anytime”. i received so many of those i actually created a mailbox within my inbox labeled “philly”.

i can’t even.

besides the heartache all us mamas have sending our birdies out of the nest, i feared there was just “too much” , way too much, too far away for us to figure out before her first day. which at this point, is in 9 days.

yesterday i spent some time just humbly thanking the lord. He knew. and while i’ve never heard his voice audibly, i felt this is what He told me.

paige. i knew this was going to be very very hard for you. i see you & i see madi. i see all the hopes & dreams you have for her and i see all the dreams she has. and i heard your fears. so i went before you. i always do, you just don’t always see it. but i’m always there. i put on these families hearts to invite madison into their lives, into their stories. i’ve always gone before you & i go before you now. & i go before your babies. the ones i chose you to raise. the ones i chose for you. so, i’ve got this. i’ve taken away all those fears & figured this out for you. now go cheer her on. it’s her time to fly.

all good gifts are from Him. my girl savannah is living a dream right now. her hubby has an amazing job. they’re in an amazing city. her wedding was everything and more. my sweet madi girl has the opportunity she’s dreamt of for years. and these families are a gift from Him. with their pots of chicken noodle soup & private suites ( one even offered her a car during her stay), with their precious children & fluffy pups ( one has already purchased shampoo & conditioner for her. ya’ll. what on earth. can you even?) it’s all from Him. all of it. and i will give Him, not instagram or social media, Him all the glory.

here’s what i want you to know. the scripture says~ Don’t forget to show hospitality to strangers, for some who have done this have entertained angels without realizing it! ( hebrews 13.2). and i believe the flip side is even true. He uses regular people with regular names in regular neighborhoods with regular crumb filled cars to be His vessels. everyday. & while we may never get a glimpse behind every curtain to see the glorious works of the heavenlies in our regular moments, don’t doubt for a moment that that’s what’s behind every good gift.

dan will drive up to philadelphia with my “little bird” ( my nickname since birth for her) in 8 days ya’ll. 8 days. and in 11 she’ll begin this next chapter in her story!! she’ll be spending time with both families with hopes that we won’t overstay our welcome or be a burden. i can’t wait to see this all unfold and i can’t wait to hug these women in person!!  i’m so excited for my girl i don’t know what to do. well, i’ll tell you what I’m going to do…im going to book many a flight to see her and i’m going to count my blessings with a thankful heart!!





September 14, 2016 - 9:51 am

Helen Spitler - Paige it is so great to see how well God loves each of us with His own special touches that resonate with our unique personalities. Thanks so much for sharing. The Spitlers will be keeping Madi in our prayers and as a mama with two of her children living out of state I will be praying for your adjustment too☺️

September 14, 2016 - 9:54 am

angela conklin - I don’t EVEN know how to respond to this except I am SO GLAD you wrote it down because one day when this is just a memory… will want to remember every detail of what God did! How Great is our God???!!!

September 14, 2016 - 9:57 am

Denise Thompson - God is so, so good!!! You are such a wonderful Mom!!! Prayers for you and your sweet family. Love you sweet friend!

September 14, 2016 - 10:10 am

Julie Corcoran - Oh I’m so glad there were plenty of folks who reached out. I would like to be added to your list as another person who doesn’t have a room, but would love to do dinner, church, life with Madi. As a newbie to Philly, I’ll explore it with her 🙂 I’ll facebook message you my number in case she is interested!

September 14, 2016 - 10:40 am

Maria Rosa - Full disclosure….I’m a tad over-emotional right now…infertility, adoption, etc….but…but….tears reading this! Happy, hopeful, grateful for our Lord orchestrating wonderful things are my favorite kinds of tears. I don’t “know” you or Madison (feel like I do 😉 or these special families in Philly but our God knows all and what an incredible way to show us all how well He writes our stories. Keeping you ALL in my prayers for a smooth transition and an exciting fall!

September 14, 2016 - 10:47 am

Lisa Mothersead - It’s so great when someone who really deserves good things, receives those blessings. I enjoy reading about your home and family, and, as a reader, have always had a “You go girl” feeling about Madi. Impressive. (You and Dan are rockin’ the parenting thing.)

September 14, 2016 - 11:11 am

Shannan Martin - This is so amazing! Radical hospitality MOVES me. This will change Madi even more than her dream job. So thrilled for all of you. And we visited Philly 2 summers ago for Calvin to see a specialist out there and fell in love with the city. I’m dying to return!

September 14, 2016 - 11:27 am

Jennifer Arnott - So thrilled that it has worked out for Madison! Keep me on your list as back up….my offer was clearly too slow. Such a wonder that you had a multitude of offers and so quickly. We are in Wayne and happy to fill in as needed….we have an open room while my son is at college.

September 14, 2016 - 11:51 am

Patty - He is so Good! Thank you for sharing what He gave to bless you. It truly blessed me as well. As a mom of adopted girls I’ve made many mistakes and questioned it all but you reminded me that He chose the children I was to raise. Many blessings to your girl Madison.

September 14, 2016 - 12:39 pm

chrissi - it is you sweet girl. your love for the lord, your man, your girls and the world in general has shone so brightly through your photos and blog and the world is replying in kind.

go miss madison and show they what you have. you are an amazing woman ♥ and have fun!

September 14, 2016 - 1:19 pm

Kerri - I couldn’t love this more! How wonderful, thank you for sharing and good luck to your sweet little bird! xo

September 14, 2016 - 1:51 pm

Pam - Okay I will have to read in sections because I can’t see thru my tears!!! I’m am so encouraged having a teen myself!

September 14, 2016 - 3:46 pm

Debbie Dabbs - What a precious girl you have in Madi. Just by shopping at Anthro, we have seen firsthand how much compassion and attention to detail she shows everyone she helps. Such character and a diligent work ethic. I know you and Dan are proud and I see why Anthro would offer her the opportunity. As a mom myself I understand your heart, and love that HE pulled that curtain back to give you a sweet reminder of HIS provision. Give Madi our best, and please keep us updated on her grand adventure!

September 14, 2016 - 4:22 pm

amy maze - what a blessing! i loved reading this! can’t wait to read a post this fall about philly and what she thinks of the internship!

September 14, 2016 - 6:09 pm

Christy - Paige, what a beautifully written testimony to Jehovah Jireh! Having met Madi and saw her heart for Wellspring I knew she was special. I sensed a special destiny for her. All of your girls are thriving and I know Mama and Dad’s heart is breaking and soaring at the same time. Give Madi a hug for me and Mike! Thanks for sharing a glimpse of His glory with all of us.

September 14, 2016 - 9:58 pm

Sarah - Madi is such a treasure! I love to see your relationship with her. Congratulations Madison! You’ll be amazing. And those families will love you just like Liam did.😀

September 15, 2016 - 11:46 am

bethanie - So excited for your sweet girl! It is just amazing how He works everything together for our good. My girls have both just had similar things happen, and it’s just the coolest watching everything work out. I’m so excited for Madi, she will do amazing things and be running that place before it’s all said and done! Glad she’s getting out of Philly in December before that long Pennsylvania winter sets in. I grew up in PA, so I promise, she’ll be glad to see her sweet state of GA when she’s done. Praying for you all, my sweet friend! xoxo

September 16, 2016 - 5:49 pm

Emily - This made me teary … such good words/ reminders!

September 19, 2016 - 2:50 pm

Heidi - Heart officially FULL! This post Paige!!! Chills and happiness for her!!! I can’t imagine the excitement. Her prayer, your prayer….come to fruition!!! What an honor! What timing too!! Yes, you are so right, God’s timing, God’s handiwork, God’s details, God’s intricacies! Love, Love, Love!!! Hugs and Kisses Paige!!!

October 6, 2016 - 9:41 pm

Nanci - Paige just saw the wedding pics, lovely would love to know where the gowns yours. And Madison’s and the. Jewelry your earrings and Savannah’s and just a thank you for sharing your heart followed your blog for long time, just know you are and encourager to many your faith shines Though keep shining for Him
God bless y’all

my peaceful easy feeling & current crush

i can’t tell you how many times i’ve tried to sit down and share my heart over the last several weeks. i think back over the years & often times when big things are occurring, whether good or bad, filled with tenderness and vulnerability, or overflowing with joy, it’s almost mentally paralyzing to let everything land. you know what i mean? like my thoughts just sorta jump from “oh gosh remember this moment….” to “holy cow…i can’t believe this” to “…i’m speechless”….

each time i think i’ve mentally reached a cohesive paragraph i then realize i need to share some backstory or atleast details in a more sequential order which leads me right back at the elusive square one all over again.

i’ll also tell you this, i earnestly tried to be respectful of the element that much of the last several months was really savannah’s story. full of details and such that needed to stay tucked inside as we planned her wedding day. i almost felt i needed to turn down the volume here on the blog. something about sharing little snippets along the way via instagram and facebook didn’t seem as broadcast-like as blogging.

i remember telling dan last fall, right after trevor asked him for savannah’s hand in marriage, that i figured i had a big, dare i say scary, new territory ahead of me. i knew that planning savannah’s wedding & all the details was going to be so much fun. creating with my girls brings me much joy. so to spend hour upon hour dreaming and shopping for gowns & beautiful jewelry, venues & dreamy florals, deciding on music and bowties…all of it…was going to be a creative’s ultimate masterpiece. but i knew the work that would begin on my heart would be something different.

i knew early on in their engagement, heck, i knew my independent adventurer was going to “peace-out-mom” me as soon as she could! with job opportunities along the west coast, sending her away, far away, seemed like the most daunting of all parental roles i would ever play. so there was a bittersweetness sprinkled in everything we did. friends would say “san francisco is only a flight away”. and while yes that’s true, it’s a long long expensive flight away. i’ll share more in the coming weeks about how i feel the lord really spoke to me and helped my heart view this move, this big change in our lives, through a new lens.

i have much to share about how the lord did a lot actually. a lot of good these last few weeks. a lot of ways he showed up & how we saw him taking care of big things as well as small. and i will. perhaps not in sequential order, or perhaps with the backstory not as detailed as i hoped to remember but i will share. this time is such a beautiful time for moms and their daughters. i want to encourage ya’ll & i want to give him glory. so hang in there with me.

meanwhile my other girls have each had a lot on their plates as well. for the last six weeks madison has been in the interview process with an awesome company for a potential internship…in philadelphia. truth be told, i had to mentally put that possibility in a little drawer. i open up that drawer every now & then and think to myself, how on earth am i going to send two of my girls to opposite corners of america within weeks of each other. i’ve prayed over & over for us to have wisdom and be able to encourage madison. i love to cheer on my girls & i love seeing them chase their dreams. their dreams aren’t right here for the right now and that part is tough. i think about these things, pray, and then i shut the drawer. i have to. it’s a lot on my heart all at once. but those drawers don’t stay shut forever, fear not, just temporarily until i can catch my breath.

*update 9/10*~ within 24 hours of my post, madison was offered an internship with Anthropologie! she will be a buying intern in the home division at their corporate hq in philly!! any of ya’ll have a guest suite available for rent let me know! no really…

emily packed up her belongings & we moved her into the AXO house at UGA early august. she began her sophomore year and is majoring in early childhood. she keeps a mighty full schedule as she’s also a young life leader at one of the local middle schools in athens. this is such an awesome opportunity for her and again, i love seeing my girls walk in the things that bring them much joy as well as the giftings the lord has given them.

sweet caroline began her sophomore year in high school. i pray it’s an awesome year for her! it’s so funny but i suppose the baby of the family is always a “baby” in a mama’s heart because i think she’s still my sweet baby girl…but she can drive now. so there. she’s become a beautiful young woman this year. i’ve seen her do some big brave things. i’ve seen her ask the lord for courage and then walk out in that courage like a big leather jacket, wrapped around her and forming to her own shape. she’s steadfast and trustworthy ( adjectives spoken over her by savannah recently). she’s my peaceful easy. a dear friend called caroline the “hidden bombshell of the knudsen family” and i nearly fell off my chair….i think she is indeed quite the unassuming bombshell!

savannah & trevor drove off in their rented penske with all their wedding gifts and earthly belongings last week. they drove from atlanta to san fran and stopped at some amazing places along the way. she’s honestly living a dream right now, but i truly believe it’s all good gifts from the lord, blessing them with immeasurably more. and i’m doing okay. it’s only been a a couple weeks and they’re gone…and they will be for a while…but my heart is doing okay, little bits at a time is what i keep saying. i just have to turn off my natural desire to think too far ahead when i start thinking about the “we’re planning on being there five years mom” plan. one day at a time. and right now the lord is helping me with a peaceful easy feeling. he is and i know he will continue.

for now…

here are some sweet images of my baby girl that i wanted to share with you. ya’ll know i love Fashionable and the work they are doing. by creating jobs for women in areas of poverty they are committed to partnering with organizations that practice fair employment. over the years i’ve worked as an ambassador with noonday collection and this has greatly changed my world view as well as how i try to shop. the leather pieces sourced & created in ethiopia are swoon worthy. i have to admit i’m a little picky about the bags i carry and these are gorgeous, high quality and very well made. the zemen tote shown below is a soft buttery leather. the mamuye tote is a stronger, stand alone type leather. both are awesome! you will receive a $10 off code ( pop-up on the site) when you first sign up to receive emails.

thank ya’ll for being my friends. many of my readers have been here from the start, 10 1/2 years ago…little bit was 4, emily 10, madison 11 and savannah was 13. we’ve walked through much together & for you, i am eternally grateful.






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September 8, 2016 - 3:59 pm

Heather - Hi! I rarely comment on blogs but had to this time when you mentioned Philadelphia! 🙂 My husband and I live in a suburb on the “Main Line” right outside Philly and I had to let you know that it’s a great city 🙂 We have 4 kids under age 8 and we’re on the Young Life committee here! If your daughter ends up interning here there is great community! Love following along as you share your heart—you’re a season ahead of me with your kids and it’s such an encouragement! xo, Heather

September 8, 2016 - 4:36 pm

Jan Fusco - Caroline, like all of your girls, is so beautiful. I know you’re glad to have her still home. It’s amazing how time flies with our kids. There are many adventures to come with all of them, wherever they may be living.
I look forward to seeing some wedding photos.

September 9, 2016 - 8:42 am

Esme - Caroline, has grown into a lovely young lady. Gone is the little 10 year old. It is hard to believe she is now driving. She seems like your bohemian child.

September 9, 2016 - 9:19 am

Alisa - I have followed you for years-and as a mom with a pretty empty nest-it’s a new adventure! For you and Dan it’s time to be a couple and that is what I have found to be both challenging and rewarding-enjoy!

September 9, 2016 - 10:42 am

Talia - Your blog (and instagram) still tops my list of favorites. You are an amazing mom and your heart is so full of love and light! As the mom of two girls myself, so many of your posts speak to me. Continued blessings to you and your beautiful family!

September 9, 2016 - 11:30 am

Lisa Mothersead - Am happy for your family as, really, all these events are wonderful and blessings. It’s just gonna take some time to process, perhaps. I miss my oldest (31) every day as she recently moved to St. Louis. She attended college and graduate school here (MSU/Springfield MO) and so I saw her often throughout her 20’s. I’ve wondered how my parents so easily watched their 4 kids scatter throughout the country. Maybe, maybe, our generation has a different kind of relationship with our kids. My daughters are friends, too. I miss my friend.. But, like your girls, this move was a natural moving forward and I want that for her, of course. Beautiful wedding pic’s and Caroline always so lovely, too.

September 9, 2016 - 6:43 pm

amy maze - I’ve loved following you through the years and think you and your girls are so fashionable, beautiful, and are just great people…even though we’ve never met in person. My heart has been heavy for you as you packed Savannah up and watched her move across country although you have so much to be thankful for and I know you are at peace, it’s still hard to let them go. I’m just sitting back, taking notes, and learning from all of you moms who are going through this before me! Kinda dreading when its my turn to watch my girl grow up, but yet excited about the possibilities and dreams coming true at the same time!

September 9, 2016 - 9:57 pm

Julie C. - Paige, I just moved from Salt Lake City, UT to Philadelphia literally 1 month ago. Crazy side note, you are friends with Peach Goff, who’s son is Sam. He attends Antioch at Waco, and I attended Antioch at SLC. Him and I have a lot of mutual friends. Anyway, I live in an area called Manayunk…its 15 minutes from downtown. Haven’t found a church home yet, but I’d be happy to be a point of contact if Madison would like 🙂 Let me know! Blessings to you and your family!

September 10, 2016 - 2:30 pm

Kimberly - I’m crying reading your post!! All I ever want is a little alone time. But then, I take my kids out for a fun morning at the farmer’s market, read your post at naptime, and now I don’t ever want my 5,3,&1 year old to leave me!! You have done an amazing job raising your girls & have so much to be proud of. I love following along, so thank you for sharing.

September 12, 2016 - 2:44 pm

angela conklin - so, where did your baby girls go? Before you know it, you will be joining the NONNY club! And you will love those years too! Much love, NONNY

September 12, 2016 - 4:20 pm

Maria Hanson - “Little bits at a time…” Those 5 words are beautiful and true, just like you. I will continue praying for you sweet Paige as you launch your amazing “little women” into the world. You are amazing and strong even in the moments when you feel weak. Much love to you. xoxo